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Today i watched Tangle and it was amazing!

but the thoughts left me at the end was... when was the last time i have painted to my heart's content?

I see the princess painting as freely as she like, not for assignment or folio. just painting it because that's what she want to do...
when was the last time i have painted to my heart's content?
stuff with thinking what i want to paint, I had it all in my mind a long time ago! i need to start, i want to paint! i dont care whether it will turn out good or not.
so tomorrow i think i will end up painting. I really really want to paint now. i dont care what it would be about, the the viewer explore in it~


the other realisation is, i think after all i was not in love. or shall i say, anymore? i think i was more scared, well its not really a accurate to use the word 'scared'. I think have always been slightly guy-phobic whatever that is called. i think it came from anti-father mind set. my dad often disappointed me, and i do not take disappointments very well, especially during the time when we were having the hard time. but i would say i am making good progression in forgiving my father and being more comfortable with associating with male gender.

i am a pessimist. tat is sth i knew for a long time. but what i realised is that i am being optimistic about being a pessimist.

actaully i am getting quite sleepy. so good night
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HELEN
年齢:
28
性別:
女性
誕生日:
1990/06/25
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学生
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絵描き&裁縫
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血液型:AB型。